All of a sudden I felt like I was useless. I can still see the value of the job that I am doing but the off hand manner people deal with me make me feel so unappreciated.
I am not expecting any long term glory for the things that I do, it's part of my job. When I got into training, I learned that while it is a noble undertaking, the glory is not commensurate. In my previous company, the training team is known to be the go to guy, very reliable and does everything with utmost flair.
Now I'm finding myself in an organization that while they value training, they don't really value it the way it should be taken. People on the inside are telling me "to spread my wings and fly." How can I do that if there is actually no space to spread my wings? The only way that I can spread my wings and fly is if I get out of this stifling atmosphere. I know of a lot of places where I have a vast area in which I could fly and soar to the highest echelons.
Why am I still here then? My pride is holding me back. I don't want to be labelled as a job hopper. I don't want to leave all my programs hanging. I want to leave with my name intact with a string of successes tucked under my belt.
All the while that I am waiting for the realization of these ambitions, the work keeps piling on and the downdraft keeps pulling me down.
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